Law School Angst

Ok I have been sleeping 10 hours a night, and this material is not that difficult, and I'm not miserable, but I am wondering what the hell I am doing.

I cannot STAND having to devote so much money and time to something I don't seem to care about at all, and I find some of these practice exams to be maddening. Just making myself read the questions reminds me of the feeling I have when I've done all the research for a paper -- the interesting part -- and then it's time to sit down and write it. I'm not interested in applying my knowledge. My knowledge is in my head because I felt like putting it there; bothering to learn something is a pretty selfish process, and if I don't feel like I want to know something, then I don't bother learning it. That said, having to reproduce the stuff that I learned for myself and for no other purpose than my intellectual interest totally goes against this principle of hedonistic learning. I get nothing (NOTHING) from writing down what I think, or applying my knowledge to someone else's fact patter than I don't care about. It's like charity, or eating food you don't want to eat.

Ok back to my practice exam. Rant over.

VC