Followup on hateful blogging:
I am also no longer gay. I’ve decided that whatever it means to be gay, here, and more and more I’m thinking “gay” is very much an aspect of one’s identity that is local, I’m not it. I’ll refrain from further hateful blogging by going on and on about whatever it is that I think gay is here, but suffice it to say that I am not it. I can still think of two or three self-identifying gays in Cairo who I think are decent people, but on the whole, at various ages, levels of wealth, looks, and geographical distribution, gay men here are pretty awful to deal with (in and out of bed). This is only to a degree about what families, Islam, Christianity, and Mubarak make people do, and is to a much larger degree about behavioural choices that don’t sit well with me (and I recognize that as a non-normative and personal statement that is free of good/bad judgment on some absolute global scale), and this is not the right place for me to be gay (or for me to be living, but that’s not something I can chance by blog declaration, so we’ll let that one be for now).
VC
PS: I’ve had plenty of sleep, watched some great tennis, got out of the house, had some good and yummy food today, and did a HUGE amount (about 6 hours continuous without distraction) of work, so I’m not being pissy for any of the usual reasons (boredom, low blood sugar, isolation, stress about lack of productivity).
Monday, January 30, 2006
VC Goes Straight